~*~

 

So you lost your trust
And you never should have,

no you never should have
Don't break your back

if you ever see this
But don't answer that

In a bullet-proof vest
With the windows all closed
I'll be doing my best
I'll see you soon
In a telescope lens
And when all you want is friends
I'll see you soon

So they came for you
They came snapping at your heels,

they come snapping at your heels
Don't break your back

if you ever say this
But don't answer that

In a bullet-proof vest
With the windows all closed
I'll be doing my best
I'll see you soon
In a telescope lens
And when all you want is friends
I'll see you soon

I'll see you soon

No, You lost your trust
No, You lost your trust
No, Don't lose your trust
No, you lost your trust

 

~ Coldplay ~

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

ugh... back to studying..... (T.T) 

 

- the picture of Dorian Gray, oscar wilde

~*~

 

When I was a child the story would say
Somebody would sweep you off your feet someday
That's what I hoped would happen with you
More than you could know
I wanted to tell you that my heart's in your hands
I prayed for the day when I would get the chance
Just when I worked up the courage to try
Much to my surprise
You had somebody else
Cuz these feelings I keep to myself

 

[CHORUS:]
I may never get to hold you so tight
I may never get to kiss you goodnight
I may never get to look deep in your eyes
Or so it seems
I always will be wishing you were mine
I think about what could be all the time
All the happiness that I could find
Baby a girl can dream

From the moment I wake up
'Til I fall asleep
I imagine you not with her but with me
Talkin' and laughin'
Sharin' our dreams
It's just a fantasy
Cuz you had somebody else
Cuz these feelings I keep to myself

 

[REPEAT CHORUS]

A girl can dream it's true
And to call you my own
Is the sweetest dream of all

[REPEAT CHORUS]

Oh a girl can dream

 

 

 He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why~

 

 

ahahaa the comps are tomoro and im in 2 classes... im in the classes with the hard outs.... o well--.--.--.-- nyeh i have 7 pgs of bio still to do.....  geynesss.............. and then.... classics...and then..... engl,..

 

after ALL my comps are over...gess wat im gnna do?

 

im gonna go out on the town with my mate susanbaachan and get SMASHED! wont that be fun? myahahaha... i got E for the bio field trip aswell... go me!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

aaaand it ended up taking sooo loong!! i just got hm at like.. 11.30pm.... and theres SCHOOL tml!! argh motherfathersonovabusinessman!...im soo sleeepy....  

 

 

 

 

 

our last rfm broadcast of the term....and we werent nervous! *GASP GASP* lolz it was so much better than last time! XDXDXD ... argh.... music performance tml..(internal) AND a math block test on algebra .... ahaha i havnt gotten my chem result back but i know its going to be awful... susan got EXCELLENCE!! and DEVON did NOT!! MUHAHAHAHA YES! *coff* anyways.... susana is ditching us...for JAPAN! XO (u better get me sumthing!) nyah... *sigh* i'll just stay home and practice for the comps... (which is wat im ment to be doin anyway...) -__-;;;;... well... back to study!!

ack..... despite me and FU's best efforts... i think i failed the chem test.... i thought i was well prepared actually...in my defense, i got Fu to tutor me TWICE befor the test AND  i studied every single freakin night up to it... i knew the ions formulae and 4 diff types of solids and y they were lyk that..... and then they threw in questions like.. what is electronegativity? y is the ..trend like this? i was like ....WAT THE HELL IS THIS??  ...OMG im gonna fail...  ....

 

it was second period..so for the rest of the day i was in a state of depression... which got worse as i sat in math..... im gonna bomb the math test nxt wednesday aswell.... o well.... by the end of the day i just didnt care anymore.... i was lyk...screw this... argh.... im tired... i think ill drink myself under the table and go to bed.

 

getting smashed always makes me fell better..

 

 

 

 

 the bio trip was the most BORING and TEDIOUS fieldtrip i have ever been on! the only highlight of the day was the SUN  o yes, yesterday there was not a cloud in sight! lisa even got sunburned it was that hot... hahaha people who went on tuesdee was so annoyed lol cuz when they went it was RAINING hardout hahaha ..but really shouldnt laugh since that may be me nxt time... as i mentioned, it was so boring and annoying, counting little sea creatures in their natural habitat.... -.-; i kept stepping on them too.... poor things... we found so little data i added some more in, 2 top shells became 4 and cats eye became 18 hahaha o well...

 

ooooohhh i got EXCELLENCE for classics report!!!! BOOYAH! XDXDXD hehehehe only 145 or so credits to go....

 

the opening of the math block today was so annoying, i was sitting in the concert band getting baked by the sun,... argh... boring speeches and everything... the only interesting item was the barbershop with 'goodbye my coney island..ba~by' lala.. they were reali good! wat else..

 

ahahahaha.. got my interim report today, the results are as follows:

 

Eng: V

Math: V

Bio: V

Chem: S

Music: V

Classics: V

 

V= very good S= satisfactory

 

the funniest thing abt it is my math grade- V, i have no idea why my teacher would give me and erica one when he MOVED me away from erica because we kept talking in chinese!! i thot i'd get an M or D (M=minor concerns and D=easiily distracted) XDXDXD crazy.. we got the same as fu who never really talked at all!! XDXDXD~~~

and im just not bothered about chemistry... dont get it any way so.... hahah if anyone knows anything about permanent dipoles or 2D covalent networks please teach me!....

 

i was lost for words.....AGAN! on live radio!! >_<* argggg it was better than last time but it was still weird!!... wen i started talking, i forgot to turn the mic on! it was sooo funni!!! XDXD me and steph are just sitting there, and im halfway thru " hey guys we're bak, susan is at bio fieldtrip now, hope its not raining ...blah blah blah.... " when i notice the red light isnt on!! XDXD so i was basically talking 2 steph.. -.-; but it was OK! only abt.. 1 min of radio silence before i quickly played a song ahahahha~~ lala~ i got all tongue-tied and couldnt string a proper sentence together -_-; we kept forgetting wat we were gonna say so it went something like this:

 

Jess: so over to stephanie's corner!

Steph: today in stephanie's corner, the riddle is " blah blah... etcetc" can you gess wat it is jess?

Jess: no.. it doesnt even make sense..

steph: well i'l leave you to think about it while we play a song

 

*~ play song*~

 

Steph: the answer is...the wind!

JEss: WTH?.. okeee

Steph: over to you Jess!

Jess: .. <o.0> away from mic *wtf?? i thot its U talking!!*

Steph: * no! we sed u were!*

Jess: *abt wat???*

Steph and Jess: * wild hand gestures and panicked expressions*

 

{ 1 min later }

 

Jess: *coff coff* er... now we'll play you something from the musical Fame!! enjoy!~

 

-_-;;;;;;; one min may not seem like a long time but on radio its a helluva LONG TIME!! every second gone is aaaages... o well... as they say: practice makes perfect... so ill keep practising talking randomly.... ^.^ another really annoying thing was some 7th form guys right outside the door who get banging  on the door, i told them to go away, quite politely i thot, and they replied wiv  "hey it's a lil asian girl in ther! how little?"and yelling obscenities at us " ur radio brdcast sucks!! get off the radio etcetc"  WTF?? i wud've yelled obsceneties back but since we were live i cudnt risk being overheard....  but i can now.. so .. fuck off you retards, mature young adults my ASS!!!! XD

 

On another less nervewracking but equally annoying topic: the weather. people who went on the Bio trip today only got rain in the morining... hopefully wen we go tml it wont rain at all! *coff*wishful thinking*coff* i am NOT going to stand in the frickin rain for 3hrs counting 100 cats eyes and catch pneumonia and die... and fail bio -_-;; damm NCEA... need to remember to take raincoat AND umbrella...

 

enuff talk about Bio.. i handed in my music instrumentation today!! i feel proud XD i finished it b4 the deadline ahahaha so now i got to do the music performance and im sweet for this term of music ~{^.^}~ i hope i get a good mark for music....... i better....

 

 

 

im such a bum....  im just... mucking around wen i shud be practising accrdion... -_-;...to tell the truth, i dont realy care if i come last at the comps... i dont give a sht anymore.. just so sick of it,..,.. every frickin year i do this and it just doesnt matter to me anymore...lalala~~

 

you kno wat i realy wanna do to my accordion? smash it 2 pieces on the concrete... take an axe to it and feed it to the fire so i can toast marshmallows over it.... hahaha my $16 thou accordion. melt down my flute while im at it... destructo girl to the ..rescue? not bloody likely..... im screwed for the comps~~~

 

im supposed to be doin classics at the mo... its due tml~~ 5 cred.. o wel.....lalala~~

aaaah stuff it.

 

[x.X]

-~*just my random thoughts.. not meant to offend...*~-

 

today at my frends bday party i lernt a song.. goes like this:

 

shake! banana, shake! shake! banana!

peel banana!, peel! peel! banana!

eat! banana, eat! eat! banana!

throw banana! throw throw! banana

mmmmmmm~~...

 

so.. its a silly song, u can get me to sing it if u nag me enuff (complete with dance moves.. payment: cookies) but it got me thinking.. am i a banana? as in -> yellow on the outside and white on the inside..

 

let's take a look at my life until now..

 

I was born in Taiwan, came to New Zealand when I was 3, trips back 'home' has become sporadic and speaking in mandarin- an obligation. I can hold a conversation in Mandarin pretty well, probably averaging 3 out 10 words being english.. compared with the what? 50 words I know how to write out of 50 000? (wishful thinking.. its proabably less than that) ..moving on... you've prolly guessed by the title im not exactly 100% azn <o.O> yea yea i kno... i can hear you shouting RACIST! at me well who cares... HA ... *ahem* so *getting to the point*....   wat i mean iz, my math and sci is crap... ask me to explain logarithms and permanent dipoles and i wana curl up die...-_-; and i cant string a proper complete sentence in mandarin to save my life... i know more about new zealand and western culture than i do taiwanese and chinese... if the stereotyical azn was real, then i truely am a banana~

 

so... to become more like a lemon (yellow on the outside, yellow on the inside .. or a grapefruit) i need to:

 

1. speak and write as much mandarin as possible

2. study harder for math and sci

3. learn about chinese and taiwanese pop culture...

 

ha.... not that it will make a difference prolly...  im pretty sure its not cuz ive been here 4 a long time.. my frend as been in NZ for 8yrs without going back 2 taiwan at all, she can speak ande write mandarin more fluently than me, her math and sci grades are prolly better than mine, and she listens predominantly to azn music - S.H.E, Mayday etcetc .. so ther ya go.. once a banana always a banana? who knows...

 

i need to go do classics now... *yawn* maybe more ramblings tml.....

ha... just finished a math internal... have a music internal on friday and next week classics report is due and instrumentation is due... bio trip and Radio Kon coming up... not the best of times to start a blog... or be online... or be alive -_-;

 

man.... getting bogged down with so many assessments, they might as well dump a big rock on my head, that's what it feels like anyhow. i think i might've failed the math internal.....o well... c'est la vie!~

 

 

last night at the classics dinner was quite fun though, went over to Erica's house to prepare (ditched concert band ha!) making those freakin greek robe things was so annoying though! and it was so hot.... but the food was really good, specially the rice, chicken lasagna thing and the bread... mmmmmmmmm bread... The school hired a bellydancer which was kinda.... random.... the funniest part was when she picked out people to go dance with her!!! some of the guys were dodgy... 'shake it baby' etcetc.. anyway... need to get back to doing classics... o the irony.....

 

~{^.^}~